orang cakap, nak jadi doktor kena suka anatomy, kena suka menghafal. kena suka biology. kena suka membaca. kena suka tidur. =.=
tapi kalau tak suka everything above, tak boleh jadi doktor lah ? macamana tu ? =/
fyi, kalau other asasians still tak tahu nak pilih field apa for their future, aku ni sah sah dah medic. dah nama pun, PREmedical studies kan ?
tapi berapa dalam minat aku nak jadi doktor, aku sendiri tak tahu. this is not a negative thinking neither doubting with myself but honestly, i hate the process to become a doctor. fuhh, i said it. =P
okay bukan aku benci anatomy, bukan aku tak suka membaca, bukan aku tak suka stress. tapi kureng ? hehe. bukan bukan, memang aku bukan a reader. apatah lagi menghafal all this scientific term sebab aku more to calculation. i do love math y'know. =D and i'm missing it damn much.
tapi demi negara, saya berkorban. *lagu negaraku berkumandang*
kalau dulu aku pernah cakap, one day when i become a great doctor, i really wanna have my own mobile clinic. so that i can go to kawasan kampung kampung, to help all those villagers and powerless and homeless and 'etc'less. aku nak treat them with the best medicines, to give them chance for life and to give my everything lah. maybe because thats the meaning of life, for me atleast. =')
pernah korang tengok orang sakit and korang rasa useless sebab tak mampu nak buat apa apa. selain tengok and tergamam. so,i really wanna have the power to change. tak ke nikmat bila kita mampu menggunakan nikmat tuhan dengan sebaiknya. ingat, bukan semua orang boleh masuk this field. kita mahal. =')
nenek aku cakap dia nak aku yang rawat dia in the future. =0
so, kadang kadang memang rasa berat kan. with all those assignments, weekly test and etc, siapa boleh cakap medic ni senang ? yet, we're trying our best and its unstoppable.
sebab semangat orang yang sakit, semangat orang yang menderita, semangat kanak kanak yang kesakitan adalah kekuatan semangat seorang doktor. betul, there's no point of being a doctor and doing nothing.
aku tak tahu kenapa tiba tiba aku mengarut pasal benda ni. so, aku nak berhenti serta merta. hehe. cukuplah point di atas.
conclusion, i hate the process of being a doctor but i want to be a doctor. so, i'll skip all this hateful feeling for my own sake and my dearest country, i'll promise you, one day i'll be serving you with dignity. =)
doakan tuhan permudahkan urusan aku and pathway kedoktoran aku and mobile clinic aku jadi kenyataan. HEHEHE
assalamualaikum wbt. =D
p/s : i have to study for this week test. urgh. eh, jangan mengeluh. -.-
salam.=')
